My mind and my heart have been twisted for the past few weeks of losing Friends that I grew up with. Life is so precious, how it is that one day everything is fine and then you wake up the next day to facebook to see your friends or relatives posting Rest in Peace Tonya Pough or April Jenkins, this is not real.... so soon. These young ladies are mothers we grew up together, playing, walking home from school, talking about boys and what we wanted to become, I'd always say I wanted to be a teacher.....lol, I'm only a few years older and they've already been called home to our father. Is it true as you get older you're more emotional about a lot of things?

 I know one day we all will be called home and that God promised us eternity. I find it hard each night before I lay my head down to sleep wondering will this be my last night on earth. Seeing a post on Face book about someone that has made an impact on my life pass away, not even that it could be me.  I find it hard to get adjusted after losing someone even if they've only been in my life for a day, a week, a month even if they've only been in your life for a few hours. Someone was put in my path by a co-worker even though he was put in my life for a little over a month. I still see myself crying for someone I barely knew. He'd call and we would talk but nothing ever happened. Tuesday, April 9th he called, we talk for a while, he calls the next day we decided to meet each other Wednesday. I was surprised by our conversation that he decided to take a day off. While talking he made a joke-telling someone in the background that he was talking to his future wife Mrs. Dempsey.

We finally decided to meet each other this past Sunday 4/14/13. Before I went to bed early 12:30am Thursday morning 4/11/13, I received a phone call from his sister my co-worker telling me that he was gone. I'd ask her gone was she repeated his gone and I'm just sitting there asking her were from the tone of her voice I finally realize that he was no longer here on earth with us and that he was joined by our Father. It hurts me so bad to have not really stayed on him about his health. God is good all the time but sometimes he takes the ones that he needs the most even when they have made such an impact on our lives. So today my late dear friend CHARLES DEMPSEY. Even though we didn't get to walk down that matrimony.......smiling, you are and will always be my Eternal husband

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me                          
                           

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see,

If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me,

I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did today,

While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.


I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,

And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name and
took me by the hand.


And said my place was ready in Heaven far above,

And that I'd have to leave behind, all those
things I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,

For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.


I had so much to live for, so much yet to do,

It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,

I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.


If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while,

I'd say goodbye and kiss you, and maybe
see you smile.

But then I fully realized, that could never be,

For emptiness and memories, would take
the place of me.


And when I thought of worldly things, I might
miss come tomorrow,

I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was
filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through Heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.

When God looked down and smiled at me,
from his great golden throne.


He said, "This is eternity and all I've
promised you.

Today your life on Earth is past, and
here it starts anew".

"I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,

And since each day's the same day, there's
no longing for the past".


"But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true,

Though there were times you did some things,
you know you shouldn't do".

"But you have been forgiven, and now at
last you're free,

So won't you take my hand now and share
My life with Me".


So when tomorrow starts without me, don't
think we're far apart,

For every time you think of me, I'm right here
in your heart.
          

RIP Charles Dempsey 4/11/13